Saturday, March 29, 2008 @ 9:12 PM
home alone.
damn. i was grounded. i was supposed to be partying and enjoying and chillaxing and whatevs at Paulina's crib today but because something came up, the plan was ruined. I've been online for exactly 4 hours and 14 minutes, that was long. I got nothing to do anyway so i'll just waste it in surfing the net. enough of that.
anywaysss, Just checking out my new layout. i loved the bright colors in it. rawrr. i'm just into colorful things nowadays.
Friday, March 28, 2008 @ 6:43 PM
it's graduation day.
Yesterday, it was the moment of truth, the last time I get to wear my uniform ever, the last time I sang the CSR shitty Hymn(nobody wants that anyway), the last time to enter CSR as their student, the last gathering I had with all of my batchmates, my eximius and the last time that I get to call Colegio de Santa Rosa, my home.
We all made it. We're now officially graduate for God sake, all our hardworks are now paid off.
I never thought it could be this so overwhelming. I'm sitting in front of my computer knowing that the High School life was now over. Yesterday, I wanted to do so many things to savor the remaining moments -- take pictures, talk to people, stand in the middle of the campus and just take everything in. For eleven years I've been in this school and it was only recently that I realized how this school really is my home. My life revolved in this school and the awesome people in it, and I know nothing about the 'real world' out there. Maybe I come armed with sufficient knowledge but experience? I don't think so. So yes, I'm dying to see the world out there. CSR has been my cocoon, taking me in as a young caterpillar, and now I'm ready to soar like the butterfly that I am. I can't wait.
But I am honestly scared as well. Like what I said, I know nothing about what's outside the walls of our school. Sure, I can commute to and from our house, CSR, glo or other nearby places, but can I really handle it all on my own? I've always felt sure of myself when I go out thinking that I'm all grown-up but in reality, I'm really still an inexperienced newbie. And yes, I can probably consider myself friendly because I have many friends from different year levels. But what if that's just because of my visibility in school? Now that I think about it, I am nothing compared to the millions of people out there, journeying the streets of Manila. Why haven't I felt this way before in my entire life?
It's probably because I've always felt safe in CSR, I can let my guard down here. All my friends are here, and I know most of the people in this place by their names, or by their faces. It's my comfort zone and as cliche as it sounds, it's my home away from home. I probably spend more time here than at home considering our usual regular classes and late dismissals. I know of no other school than CSR, and I can't imagine calling myself an "alumna."
Perhaps it's not the Graduation itself I fear, but the aftermath. What will happen and what will be left of us? -- those are the big questions. And I guess we'll never really know until it comes. One side of me wants to rewind and freeze time. But there's pretty much nothing I can do about it. The time has come, and it's up to me how I'll handle life after it.
I certainly hope that yesterday won't be the last time I get to call myself a Rosena.
Tuesday, March 11, 2008 @ 9:29 PM
Wednesday, March 5, 2008 @ 12:05 AM
hell week
DAY 2 of last hell week in CSR.i haven't studied yet. damn.
rawrr, can't wait for this to be over.
I swear to holy heavens that as soon as this shit
end, i will just chill and enjoy the remaining days of
my highschool life.
I wouldn't thought that this will be fast.
In no less than a month, we will all part ways.
ok. enough of this drama. I will save my speech first, wait for my special grad blog. :D
Monday, March 3, 2008 @ 8:31 AM
FUCK SHITEEEE.
rawrrr. i need to rant down my thoughts.
this thesis project is killing me, actually we haven't
started it yet. because of my motherfucker groupmate.
kasi naman you should have said to me earlier that you couldnt make it dba?
at least, alam ko. at sana nakagawa pa ako ng paraan.
hindi ung ganito, iiwanan mo kami sa ere.
FUCK shit tlgaaaaaaaaaaa.
dammmitt. wala pa akong nagagawa. at least, i have ira with me.
together, sana magawaa namin un. but i doubt that we will be able to accomplish this shit.
we have to book bind the thesis pa, to think that the deadline of this shit is on wed na.
damn. how good is that eh?
I can feel the presure
its getting closer now
tis' the way