live. laugh. LOVE. ♥♥♥

2010-01-26T22:37:00.002+08:00

who would've thought that i'd open this account again? hahah.

still haven't created new blog. i really wanna use tumblr!! but i don't

know what username will I use. UHHHH.

Anyway, i remember - keyshia cole (these are my thoughts exactly as of this moment)

Where were you, when I said I loved you
And where were you, when I cried at night
Waiting up, couldn't sleep without you
Thinking of, all the times we shared

I remember when my heart broke
I remember when I gave up loving you
~~My heart couldn't take no more of you~~
I was sad and lonely

I remember when I walked out
I remember when I screamed I hated you
But somehow deep inside, still loving you, sad and lonely

No one knew, all the pain I went through
All the love, I saved deep in my heart for you
Didn't know, where I would go, where I would be
But you made me leave, and plus my heart it just
It just kept telling me so

ooooooooooo

I remember when my heart broke
I remember when I gave up loving you
~~My heart couldn't take no more of you, I was sad and lonely~~
I remember when I walked out
I remember when I said I hated you
But somehow deep inside, still loving you, so sad and lonely

There was nowhere else to go, oh
Nobody else, to turn to, no
For the rest of my life, I promise myself I
Will love me first, genuinely

FTW!

2009-12-21T22:21:00.002+08:00

bakit ganun? at the end of the day i still think about you. ~~thinking what is it like if it's still us.~~ i hate to say this, but i miss you, really.

WOOHOOO

2009-12-15T21:15:00.003+08:00

Last day tom, and i still haven't studied at all. good job ej! :))))

2009-12-09T01:15:00.003+08:00

I should be studying for my finals tom, oh scratch that, later pala. haha. oh well, papel.

Lord, help me pass my majors this term. Ayokong maging ireg. Promise uuwi na ako ng maaga, and i will not drink na. hahahaha. :))

RANDOM

2009-10-24T11:53:00.002+08:00

It's much easier to blog in a bullet type form. so there, im to lazy put this all in paragraphs.

* wants to have a tumbler account. I think it would be cool-er than blogspot.
* wants space brownies WOOHOOO.
* needs to focus, midterms week already next week. Still haven't learned anything yet.
* quit smoking. (weh)
* Save save money!
* wants a new phone. :| so badly
* promise to stay away from the things that reminds me of her.
* should seriously stop facebook stalking. It is deadly.
* ~~"Dapat hindi na ako nasasaktan, kasi ginusto ko to. Pero hindi eh."~~

2009-10-22T23:05:00.001+08:00

ALAM MO YUNG NAKAKAPAGOD NA? SAME SHIT EVERY FUCKING DAY.

2009-10-22T22:51:00.000+08:00

Why do everything have to be complicated? *sighs*

nakakapagod na yung ganito eh.

2009-10-12T22:40:00.003+08:00

Comparisons are easily done
Once you've had a taste of perfection
Like an apple hanging from a tree
I picked the ripest one, I still got the seed

You said move on, where do I go?
I guess second best is all I will know

'Cause when I'm with him I am thinking of you
(Thinking of you, thinking of you)
Thinking of you, what you would do
If you were the one who was spending the night
(Spending the night, spending the night)
Oh, I wish that I was looking into your eyes

You're like an Indian summer in the middle of winter
Like a hard candy with a surprise center
How do I get better once I've had the best?
You said there's tons of fish in the water, so the waters I will test

He kissed my lips, I taste your mouth, oh!
(Taste your mouth)
He pulled me in, I was disgusted with myself

'Cause when I'm with him I am thinking of you
(Thinking of you, thinking of you)
Thinking of you, what you would do
If you were the one who was spending the night
(Spending the night, spending the night)
Oh, I wish that I was looking into

You're the best, and yes, I do regret
How I could let myself let you go
Now, now the lesson's learned
I touched it, I was burned
Oh, I think you should know!

'Cause when I'm with him I am thinking of you
(Thinking of you, thinking of you)
Thinking of you, what you would do
If you were the one who was spending the night
(Spending the night, spending the night)
Oh, I wish that I was looking into your, your eyes
Looking into your eyes, looking into your eyes

Oh, won't you walk through?
And bust in the door and take me away?
Oh, no more mistakes
'Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay, stay

I swear, this would be the last time that i would talk/write/blog about you here. And yeah, i think you should know that im really sorry. Im sorry if caused you too much pain. Im sorry if i was a bitch. Im sorry if i was so self-centered that i didnt consider what were you thinking or feeling. I was too afraid, and scared. I was selfish.

I miss you bigtime :| uhhh, Friends?

-xix

HAPPYHAPPYHAPPY

2009-10-10T11:57:00.001+08:00

Current LSS!

Vanilla Twilight by Owl City :"> So adorable! ♥♥♥

The stars lean down to kiss you,
And I lie awake I miss you,
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere.
Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly,
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'll send a postcard to you dear,
Cause I wish you were here.

I'll watch the night turn light blue,
But it's not the same without you,
Because it takes two to whisper quietly,
The silence isn't so bad,
Till I look at my hands and feel sad,
Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly.

I'll find repose in new ways,
Though I haven't slept in two days,
Cause cold nostalgia chills me to the bone.
But drenched in Vanilla twilight,
I'll sit on the front porch all night,
Waist deep in thought because when I think of you.
I don't feel so alone.
I don't feel so alone.
I don't feel so alone.

As many times as I blink I'll think of you... tonight.
I'll think of you tonight.

When violet eyes get brighter,
And heavy wings grow lighter,
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again.
And I'll forget the world that I knew,
But I swear I won't forget you,
Oh if my voice could reach back through the past,
I'd whisper in your ear,
Oh darling I wish you were here.

2009-09-29T13:12:00.001+08:00

I got stranded at school last saturday. What an epic day.

Thank God I got home safe and sound.

2009-09-26T05:23:00.004+08:00

PUTA. FML!

I was too selfish, i realized i was thinking of myself too much. I never thought of it that way, never thought of it in her perspective. I was so self-centered. Now this guilt rush through me. I realized that i was so fucked up. I hate this kind of feeling. The only thing to blame is me. I was the one who put myself into this situation, into this shit of troubles. There's no other way but for me to fix this up. But how? If i only have the strength to do so.

It's true that people can move on. But, you can never erase the fact that only amnesia and death can erase memories. :|

2009-09-26T03:18:00.001+08:00

how am i suppose to have a 2x2 id picture by 8am today? wala pang bukas na photocenter nun :| FML!

2009-09-23T00:51:00.000+08:00

Shit EJ, ang sama mo okay? Ang sama ko.

Just because I'm Random

2009-09-16T23:58:00.003+08:00

1. NEW TERM, NEW LIFE... Not! My sched's shitty as usual. Not to mention my shitty profs this term. On the lighter side, my sched this term has several breaks, which means i can stay at lair :> Since i have breaks, unlike last term, there's no need to cut, right? Yes EJ! Goal in life, not to cut classes.

2. I just finished reading The Host by Stephenie Meyer, the same author of the twilight sage. And i was surprised, that i missed reading. I need fuel up my imagination! Speaking of which, I did enjoy reading the host as much as reading the twilight series. Stephenie's so good at this out-of-this-world kind of story.

3. I went to Navy Gym a while ago, and guess what? They all greeted me with the face confused, and they kept on saying that i did gain weight. My face became chubby daw :| ohgaaaad. I hate it. I need to lose those excess fat! DAMN YOU REDHORSE! I knew it all along that you're no good. :)) Diet and exercise alert!

4. I need to save my freakin' money. I want a lot of things lately (books, clothes, shoes and etc). I guess, i need to work up for it a little bit. I have to buy my new laptop batteries for God sake, so that my macbook will be usefull.

5. KANYE WEST IS AN A-HOLE, SERIOUSLY.

6. My Political Science prof this term is H-O-T. She's a foreigner, imagine those german accent :p~ Oh noes, lesbo tendencies :))

Shoot, i need to finish my homework first, so there.

TOODLES~

2009-08-30T18:27:00.001+08:00

My parents was so mad at me yesterday, as usual wala akong kakampi. DAAAANG. Kailangan kong magpagoodshot :| :))

i need to take a break, from all the stress that school and my parents give me.

AYOKO NA.

2009-08-27T02:49:00.001+08:00

I QUIT.

BOOMBOOMBOOM

2009-08-26T11:58:00.002+08:00

okay, random rant.

Finals is neaaar and im freaking scared to take ACTMANA exam. Its a do or die for me. Why the hell was accounting invented?! RAWWRR. and FINMAT1. :( My final exam sched is a shit. totally. i had to wait for 7 fvcking hours just for me to take the next test. That's so bullshit.

WHERE ART THOU?

2009-08-18T09:37:00.003+08:00

I guess it is true what they say about beginnings and endings -- it all happens too fast and too soon, technically not that that fast, because its been months already. Things start coming to a close before we even get the chance to relish it; things begin unfolding before we have time to forget. It's a continuous rollercoaster ride and there's no way to be sure of what's going to happen next. Sometimes, it's so sudden it hurts. But sometimes, the rush makes the transition easier. It's confusing, it's uncertain, it's complicated.

I'm standing between an ending and a beginning. The lines have been blurred and I don't know if I'm still on the same chapter. But one thing is for sure: if fate won't finish it for me, I will. Because I guess I deserve a new start. But how can I do that if every single time I'm on my own, is struggle. Struggle to keep my mind of a very special thing, a very special love. That no one can ever replace.

Im planning to delete some old photos, and videos. But guess what, I still can't. I can't throw it all up just like that.

I've been having so many questions inside my head lately.

HAAY, KELAN BA KASI AAYOS UTAK KO?

On the lighter side, I passed MARKET1. FINMAT1 na lang proproblemahin ko :>

I PASSED MARKET1!

2009-08-14T11:17:00.001+08:00

Super sulit 'yong walang tulugan days with Janine and Jeff :>
We got the highest score for marketing paper, baby! Never expected that it would be that high.

BOBONG =))))

2009-08-05T16:34:00.001+08:00

tips para di ka magsisi sa huli:

* kung di ka willing masaktan, habang nanliligaw pa lang xa e patigilin mo na. kakambal ng pagmamahal ang sakit at sakripisyo. mas maganda kung ienjoy mo muna ang buhay single. mahirap na bumalik sa mundo ng single ng hindi ka injured. suportahan mo kami. NO TO BOYS! :))1

* isipin mo ang history ng manliligaw mo. kung mabilis xa magpalit at magsawa noon, nako. magisip ka na. di tayo mga damit na kapag madumi na e magpapalit lang.

* pwede ring itanong mo yung dahilan ng break up nila ng ex niya. mas maganda kung alam mu yung panig nilang dalawa. malay mo nagsisinungaling yung isa. db? haha. dun mo malalaman kung good boy talaga xa o hindi.

* kung first ka man nya, siguraduhin mo na mature enough na xa para sa commitment. hindi lang kasal ang bawal iluwa pag mainit. tandaan mo yan.

* siguraduhin mo na nakapag move on na talaga xa sa ex niya ha! nako. wala akong masabi sa mga lalaking ganito.

* wag na wag kang maniniwala sa mga sinasabi niya. sabihin mo na ipakita niya by actions hindi sa mga mabulaklak na salita lamang.

* hindi porke pinagkakagastusan ka niya ng pera at oras niya ngaun e mahal ka na niya. ul*l! magisip ka nga. baka di mo alam ang pera at oras na masasayang mo kapag iniwan ka nyan. hahaha!

* di porke pinili ka niya ngaun e ikaw na talaga ang mahal niya. siguro he just took you for granted kasi ayaw sa kanya nung mahal niya.

* wag kang magbibigay ng alam mong pagsisisihan mo lang. wag mong ibigay ang mga bagay na di mo na mababawi kelanman. wag mong ibigay lahat. in short, tikim tikim lang. :))

* magingat sa mga libre at bigay sayo. baka pag tapos na ang lahat sa inyo at magsumbatan kayo, e magulat ka na lang na loan pala yun at kelangan mong bayaran. may tubo pa.

* kung nagiisip ka ng pwedeng iregalo sa kanya, tip ko sau e picture nio. ung malaki ha. ung hapi kaung dalawa. ung PINAKA maganda niong pic ever. para kapag naghiwalay kau at sa tuwing nakikita niya un e manghihinayang siya sau na tipong masasabi niya sa sarili nia, 'SAYANG pinakawalan ko pa itong perfect girl na ito.' oh well. haha.

* bumili ka ng katalinuhan. oo, tanga ka pero wag mong abusuhin ang prebilehiyo ng pagiging t*nga. sayang naman ang paghihirap ng magulang mo kung magpapakat*nga ka sa walang kwentang lalaki.

* magimbak ka ng kahihiyan at awa sa sarili mo. kelangan un.

* wag akuin ang di mo kasalanan. kapag nasanay xa, aabusuhin niya un. magmumukha kang kawawa. eww.

* lagi mong tandaan na kung mahal ka talaga niya, hindi kailanman sasagi sa isip niya na saktan ka. kung tunay syang lalaki, may paki sya sa nararamdaman mo at sa relasyon niyo.

TANDAAN MO pagdating sa break up:

* pag sinabi nilang kelangan nila ng time ang ibig sabihin nun e kelangan nila ng time para makapag hanap. di totoo na hahanapin nila ang sarli nila. ibang bagay ang gusto nilang hanapin. at di nila yun nahanap sau.

* "kaya sila gmgawa ng mga stupid reasons kasi ayaw nila tayong masaktan.."

* "..pero hindi nila alam mas nasasaktan tayo ng bonggang bongga!" --sabi ng taong itago na lang natin sa pangalang liit. :))

* pag sinabi na nilang namimiss na nila ang sarili nila, ibig sabihin nun nasasakal na sila sau. madame kang sigurong limitations. marami xang di nagagawa dahil sau. ganun kasimple.

* kaya nambababae ang mga lalaki ay dahil sawa na sila sau. gusto nila magexplore ng iba.

* pag nakipag hiwalay sau na walang matinong dahilan, haha, malamang bakla un.

* lahat ng lalaki tumitingin sa iba. tama ang nabasa mo. LAHAT. di man nila aminin pero ganun un. darating at darating ang point na mapapatingin sila sa iba. pero yung iba hanggang tingin lang. un ang good boy! pero totoo nga un. kaya nga tayo may peripheral vision diba? para di mahalata na nasa iba yung tingin. tama ba? tsaka sadyang ginawa ang mata ng mga lalaki na mabilis. well, ginawa namang mabilis ang utak ng mga babae. hahaha!

tips kapag nagsisi ka na:

* hello? di pa katapusan ng mundo. THERE ARE MANY FISH IN THE SEA. maganda ka. maniwala ka sa nanay mo.

* normal na umiyak ka. pero wag naman sa harap niya na with matching tulo pa ng sipon ha. ampanget. swear!

* wag kang makikinig sa mga slow na song na tipong sinasampal sayo ung mga lyrics.

* maniwala ka sa kasabihang, "new haircut, new boyfriend" baka naman hiniwalayan ka dahil sa buhok mong pagkaganda ganda!

* wag kang magpuyat sa kakaiyak. baka madaig mo pa ang patay sa lalim ng mata mo. maawa ka naman sa sarili mo.

* wag kang magmukmok. lumabas kau ng friends mo. malay mo nasa mall ang man of your dreams.

* wag mo syang burahin sa Y!m at friendster mo. pustahan di ka makakatiis nyan. di mo mapipigilang magtanong sa kaibigan mo kung anong stat msg nya, kung ol ba xa, kung sino nacocomments sa kaya at sino ang mga featured friends niya. ung*s! nangiistorbo ka sa buhay ng may buhay. bura bura epek ka pa dyan e kabisado mo naman. ikaw yung magmumukhang loser sa pag add mu uli sa kanya.

* wag na wag kang magpapapansin sa YM. wag ka maglagay ng mga paawang epek na stat msg or magON and OFFline ka ng ilang beses dyan. ikaw lang ang magmumukhang tanga. loser!

* iwasan ang paglalagay sa group message ng bitter quotes at special mentions na malalandi ung tipong lahat e para sa lalaki. wag mo nang daanin sa group message! sabihin mo na lang sa harap niya. hahaha!

* wag mo na din itry na burahin yung number niya. alam nating lahat na kabisado mo yan.

* tandaan mo na tao lang xa. hindi xa perpekto. hindi xa hangin na kelangan mo sa araw araw at minuminuto. kung yaw mo maniwala, adik ka g*go!

* wag sasabak sa sumbatan ng wala kang armas at kung alam mong dehado ka. para din yang intermission number. bongga ka kung mei hayop kang entrance at exit. :))

* kung gusto mo talagang magpakamatay, bahala ka. lugi ka noh. lam mo kung bakit? dahil sa dami dami ng lalaki sa mundo e xa lang natikman mo. payag ka nun? explore gurl!

* wag kang iinom ng di mo kaya. wala kang mapapala. di mo malilimutan yung hapdi na ginawa niya sau. ang tanging bagay lang na malilimutan mo e yung mga k*t*rantaduhang ginawa mo habang lasing ka. hindi masusulusyunan ng isa o kahit ilan pang bote ng alcohol yang problema mo.

* kung tips sa pagpapakamatay ang hanap mo, ang pinaka magandang solusyon ay pagpapanggap. yung tipong friends forever kuno kau. kwento niya yung bago niya. ipagyayabang niya kung gaano kaganda, kasexy, kabaet, katalino, kayaman, kasweet at lahat ng oposit mo ung girl niya. anong kamatay matay dun? edi yung pagpapanggap mo na napakasaya mo para sa kanya kahit gusto mo na xang hilahin sa impyerno.

* wag kang magpanggap na masaya ka. tanggapin mo na lang. kahit unti unti. wag kang maging plastik sa sarili mo. loka. baka magulat ka isang araw hindi mo na kilala kung sino ka. magpakatotoo ka. walang masama dun. pero hinay lang at baka may nasisipa ka na jan.

* wag kang maghabol. wag ka umasang babalik pa yan. lalaki lang ulo niya. magiging feeling xa. gusto mo?

* hindi masarap ang pride. actually, nakakalason. wala akong kilala na naging masaya sa pagkain ng pride niya.

* kung babalik yan, magingat ka. kung nagawa na niya sau un, kaya niyang gawin uli un. wag ka maniwala kaagad na nagbago at nagsisisi xa. mas masakit kapag second time na niloko ka nya.

* pero wag mong isara ang puso mo sa kanya. malay mo nagbago at narealize na niya ung pagkakamali niya. hmm. ay wait. ERASE ERASE!!

* higit sa lahat. wag mong isasara ang puso mo sa ibang lalaki. wag mong sabihin na di ka na magmamahal muli. sa ngayon siguro, oo, masasabi mo yan pero pag mei nakasabay kang gwapong lalaki sa jeep e parang nalimutan mo na isinumpa mo ang lahat ng mga lalaki. maiisip mo, 'di naman lahat ng lalaki katulad ng ex ko.' HAHA. t*nga!

2009-08-05T16:22:00.000+08:00

Sometimes in our lives
We all have pain
We all have sorrow
But if we are wise
We know that there's
Always tomorrow.

2009-08-04T23:21:00.000+08:00

ALAM MO YUNG NAKAKALUNGKOT PAG UMUULAN?

2009-07-30T23:53:00.000+08:00

finally legaaaaaaaaal! wooohoooo.

SHET LANG

2009-07-28T21:27:00.001+08:00

bakit ganito?

dapat di ko to nararamdaman.

why am i being so selfish? why o why? :(((((((

hey you, i know you've moved on. be happy :")

2009-07-21T22:47:00.001+08:00

BAd daaaaaaay.

Thank you talaga finmat at market1. :((((
ayokong maging ireg dahil sa kanila shiyet.

in need of coffee

2009-07-15T22:01:00.001+08:00

is pulling an all-nighter todaaaaaaaay, i mean, tonight :)))

[ ] paper#1

[ ] paper#2

[ ] study midterms FINMAT

[ ] study midterms MARKET1

CRAMCRAMCRAM. haven't done anything. :(((

2009-07-12T21:23:00.003+08:00

Sometimes in our lives

We all have pain
We all have sorrow
But if we are wise
We know that there's
Always tomorrow.

HAAAAAAY. UMUULAN NA NAMAN. :((

riiiiiiiight.

2009-07-11T12:23:00.000+08:00

On this day of your life, Ej, we believe God wants you to know...
... that every relationship rests on three legs: accepting, supporting and challenging.

That's really it, isn't it? You want your relationships to be grounded on accepting each other as you are. On supporting each other through the inevitable ups and downs. On challenging each other to become more, to grow, to flourish. Which one of these is the more difficult one for you, and how are you going to practice it in the next 24 hours?

2009-07-03T02:35:00.002+08:00

I THINK ITS TIME TO LET GO.....

2009-06-25T10:17:00.002+08:00

I can honestly say,

you've been on my mind

since i woke up today.

i look at your photograph

all the time.

This memory has come

back to life.

there's something wrong.

2009-06-24T23:47:00.002+08:00

... with me. :| and i fucking hate this feeling.

2009-06-21T22:36:00.002+08:00

my laptop's battery is fucked up, seriously. ughhhhh. i can't use my laptop without connecting it to the power supply. Meeeeeen, badtrip!

2009-06-21T22:14:00.002+08:00

NEW HAIR = NEW ME = NEW LIFE, hopefully.

I MISS YOU.

2009-06-04T12:05:00.002+08:00

it's killing me to see you go after all this time.

I don't know what to be without you around.

There's no one here to save me.

You're the only thing I know like the back of my hand,

And I can't, Breathe, Without you, But I have to.

2009-04-30T13:49:00.005+08:00

NEW CRUSH!~~~~~~ :>

Introducing Cassadee Pope, and yes she's the powerhouse vocalist of a new band called Hey Monday. I first saw her in MTV while searching for decent tv shows. While their music video of Homecoming is playing, I find her so H-O-T. And i absolutely love her hair, makes me wanna cut my hair and dye it like hers. AWWWW, Adorable creature :> ONA, lesbo tendencies :))))

2009-04-30T11:51:00.002+08:00

Im really a bad bad blogger :| i havent updated this for the longest time because I AM LAZY TO DO SO. But then, i felt like i have to update this account. anyway, it was summer vacation already. But it will last for just a month, because DLSU has tri-semester ( did i spell that right?) so there. I HAVEN'T HAD THAT SUMMER ESCAPADE YET. and i really want one so badly. My cousins and I were supposed to go to Puerto Galera, but my brother backed out because he has class the same time. :| my parents won't allow me to go. SHITTY? INOERYT.

on the lighter side, I made a promise to myself that i will make this vacation fruitful. So i enrolled in a badminton summer clinic. Its mondays, wednesdays, and fridays, 'til May 15. Not so bad after all, i got nothing to do. Badminton's way better than slacking all day right? I have to be fit somehow :)) I have to shred of this stupid fats in my stomach. RAWRR

2009-03-10T20:47:00.002+08:00

FREE WIFI IS THE SHIZZZZZ :)))

Natuwa lang ako, eh. Bakit ba? :)
Seriously speaking, I'm using the wifi connection of my dear neighbor/s :> pero I don't know who are they exactly. It's been a while, since I have used my laptop in updating my blog, Nakakamiss lang:|

2009-03-08T22:02:00.001+08:00

bakit ang init sa Pilipinas? :((

L-O-V-E

2009-02-27T14:10:00.002+08:00

Love is patient, love is kind.It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.

It is not rude, it is not self seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.

Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.

It always protects, always trust, always hopes, always preserves.

1 Corinthians 13:4-7

I just watched A Walk to Remember since I have nothing to do. I've already watched it 65796461 times, and i still get teary-eyed whenever i watch it. :">

2009-02-26T20:38:00.003+08:00

OMG YAAAYYY. :)) I PASSED THE MFI SHIFTING TEST :>

Yeahuh, Goodbye IBS, Hello MFI naaa!

I'll be a financial management major next term. Not my dream though, but at least, it was close enough. 'Tis more specific course compared to IBS, Interdisciplinary Business Studies :)

Random shitness:

1. Ej wants to drink NOW! for no particular reason, I just felt the urge of drinking. Bakit ba? :))

2. Ej is pissed off because "He's just not that into you movie" and "Shopaholic" is not anymore showing. I wanna watch it pa naman :|

3. EJ WANTS TO WATCH YOU CHANGED MY LOVE OF PAPA JOHN LOYDD! :)))))

4. Ej needs rest.

5. Ej is lucky to have her.

Wala na akong maisip. :)

2009-02-17T18:51:00.002+08:00

Feb 18 na tomorrow :| OHNOES. The results for the qualifying text for mfi will be released.

I'm scared. What if I wasn't able to pass the frikkin' test?

2009-02-13T21:05:00.002+08:00

erofyapsoifsadlghsdafha;gh :((((((((((((

errrrrr.

GOODBYE MFI. I'm not confident with my essay. Damn it! I should have done better.

But I'm still hoping. God can make miracles right? Oh well.

2009-02-13T09:38:00.003+08:00

Qualifying exam for MFI Shiftees later :| I'm scared. I hope and pray that I'll pass this exam. OH PLEASE LORD. ETO NA LANG VALENTINES GIFT MO SA AKIN. My test is all about the bankruptcy of lehman brothers. The hell! it was just my first time to encounter those. :( And the handouts given to us was to deep. 'twas full of economic terms. :|

- rawrrrr. SO HELP ME GOD.

Leap'09

2009-02-11T19:57:00.005+08:00

BNE11 Batch assembly was the sponsor for the sushi making class!

What an experience! itwas super duper fun. :)) Seriously, we were just making different kinds of sushi and we'll eat it afterwards :> YUMMY.

70 pesos for 5 kinds of sushi. It was really our lucky day :>:>

GOOD JOB JANINE AND IRIS, your hardwork has paid off.

The speakers for the said class were Chef Jacky(Janine's Brother), Chef Chiqui, and Chef Paulo.

Blahnix.

2009-02-07T14:32:00.002+08:00

FRIENDSHIP.

1. a relationship between two or more individuals that share a mutual bond of trust and liking as well as commitment and personal feelings and experiences, which allows them to benefit from each other.

2. It is something between two or more people who can trust each other and that will never turn their back on each other no matter what.

ILOVEYOUGUYSFOREVER. You are the best. :)

(The picture above was edited by me. I was too bored :>)

DAMN IT!

2009-02-04T18:04:00.002+08:00

Did I mention that I failed my second quiz in ACTPACO? :| I hate it. 'Yun na nga lang 'yung major subject ko ngayon, babagsak pa ako.

We'll be having another test tomorrow. I need to study hard. Or else... WAAAA. Pressure!

Rin on the Rox.

2009-02-01T19:09:00.003+08:00

A week ago, while searching for the video of Beyonce’s If I were a boy in youtube, I happen to bump with Rin on the Rox’s version (or cover) of this song and I find their version better than Beyonce’s. Haha. Their voices fit together and they make such Superb harmon. Damang dama ko nga yung kanta eh. They were featured in ABS CBN's TV Patrol, and like charice. they too were being invited by Ellen Degeneres at her show! :)

Did I mention that they are both Filipino? Another reason to be a proud pinoy. Ibang klaseng talaga mga vocal chords naten. LAVET!

If I were a boy Even just for a day

I’d roll out of bed in the morning

And throw on what I wanted and go Drink beer with the guys

And chase after girls I’d kick it with who I wanted And I’d never get confronted for it Because they’d stick up for me

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man
I’d listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he’s taken you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

If I were a boy
I would turn off my phone
Tell everyone its broken
So they think
that I was sleeping alone
I’d put myself first
And make the rules as I go
Cause I know that she’d be faithful
Waiting for me to come home

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man
I’d listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted (wanted)
Cause he’s taken you for granted (granted)
And everything you had got destroyed

It’s a little too late for you to come back
Say its just a mistake
Think I forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you
You thought wrong

But you’re just a boy
You don’t understand (yea you don’t understand)
How it feels to love a girl
Someday you’ll wish you were a better man
You don’t listen to her
You don’t care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
Cause you’ve taken her for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

But you’re just a boy…

YAYAYAYAYAYAY!!

2009-01-31T13:49:00.004+08:00

New theme ya'll! check it out. :)

I like this better. Simplicity is beauty right? I figured out that I'll be needing a new theme, since Im backkk. ~~I hope i'll be lazy and all that in updating this Blogspot account~~ WHATEVERRR. HAHAH.

and oh. I need our wifi back for me to update this thing every now and then. It's really annoying to share PCs with your brothers :| ugh. Especially when they're being unfair with you and you have to cram for your paperworks. You know what I mean? I missed using my lapytopy :| Hateit!

2009-01-30T13:11:00.002+08:00

IM BACKKKK.

You better missed!

and im bringin this blogspot into life again.
i got pretty absorbed in multiply and facebook (fashion warss err).
and so i neglected this sacred space i once had everytime im leaking weird thoughts.

i missed you blogspot.
:]

I'm soooo back.

2008-12-19T10:38:00.001+08:00

DECEMBER 19, a supposedly happy day for me. But then....

LALALAL.

2008-11-11T09:14:00.001+08:00

ANG HIRAP MAGAYOS NG SCHEDULE. :( HAHA. HASSLE LANG EH.

fcuk.

2008-10-21T23:07:00.003+08:00

Its already 11 pm and we're still doing this busorga shit :( I just felt the need to blog, to make me sane. Damn. This paper is killing me. I hate it.

On the lighter side:

Is anyone else as excited about this movie as I am? I don't care about the casting anymore, I just want to see how it all turns out. I'm anxious already!

Sorry na. BENTA!

2008-10-10T22:28:00.000+08:00

Touchy Lines From Bob Ong

( PAKIBASA BAWAT ISA!)

PAG-IBIG

“Kung hindi mo mahal and isang tao, wag ka nang magpakita ng motibo para
mahalin ka nya..”

“Lahat naman ng tao sumeseryoso pag tinamaan ng pagmamahal. Yun nga lang,
hindi lahat matibay para sa temptasyon.”

“Gamitin ang puso para alagaan ang taong malapit sayo. Gamitin ang utak
para alagaan ang sarili mo.”

“Huwag mong bitawan ang bagay na hindi mo kayang makitang hawak ng iba.”

“Huwag mong hawakan kung alam mong bibitawan mo lang.”

“Huwag na huwag ka hahawak kapag alam mong may hawak ka na.”

“Parang elevator lang yan eh, bakit mo pagsisiksikan ung sarili mo kung
walang pwesto para sayo. Eh meron naman hagdan, ayaw mo lang pansinin.”

“Kung maghihintay ka nang lalandi sayo, walang mangyayari sa buhay mo..
Dapat lumandi ka din.”

“Pag may mahal ka at ayaw sayo, hayaan mo. Malay mo sa mga susunod na araw
ayaw mo na din sa kanya, naunahan ka lang.”

“Hiwalayan na kung di ka na masaya. Walang gamot sa tanga kundi
pagkukusa.”

“Pag hindi ka mahal ng mahal mo wag ka magreklamo. Kasi may mga tao rin na
di mo mahal pero mahal ka.. Kaya quits lang.”

“Bakit ba ayaw matulog ng mga bata sa tanghali? alam ba nilang pag natuto
silang umibig e hindi na sila makakatulog kahit gusto nila?

“Hindi lungkot o takot ang mahirap sa pag-iisa kundi ang pagtanggap na sa
bilyon-bilyong tao sa mundo, wala man lang nakipaglaban upang makasama
ka.”

“Kung nagmahal ka ng taong di dapat at nasaktan ka, wag mong sisihin ang
puso mo. Tumitibok lang yan para mag-supply ng dugo sa katawan mo. Ngayon,
kung magaling ka sa anatomy at ang sisisihin mo naman ay ang hypothalamus
mo na kumokontrol ng emotions mo, mali ka pa rin! Bakit? Utang na loob!
Wag mong isisi sa body organs mo ang mga sama ng loob mo sa buhay! Tandaan
mo: magiging masaya ka lang kung matututo kang tanggapin na hindi ang
puso, utak, atay o bituka mo ang may kasalanan sa lahat ng nangyari sayo,
kundi IKAW mismo!”

PAG-AARAL

“Mag-aral maigi. Kung titigil ka sa pag-aaral, manghihinayang ka pagtanda
mo dahil hindi mo naranasan ang kakaibang ligayang dulot ng mga araw na
walang pasok o suspendido ang klase o absent ang teacher. (Haaay,
sarap!).”

“Nalaman kong marami palang libreng lecture sa mundo, ikaw ang gagawa ng
syllabus. Maraming teacher sa labas ng eskuwelahan, desisyon mo kung
kanino ka magpapaturo. Lahat tayo enrolled ngayon sa isang university,
maraming subject na mahirap, pero dahil libre, ikaw ang talo kung nag-drop
ka. Isa-isa tayong ga-graduate, iba’t-ibang paraan. tanging diploma ay ang
mga alaala ng kung ano mang tulong o pagmamahal ang iniwan natin sa
mundong pinangarap nating baguhin minsan…”

“Hikayatin mo lahat ng kakilala mo na magkaroon ng kahit isa man lang
paboritong libro sa buhay nila. Dahil wala nang mas kawawa pa sa mga taong
literado pero hindi nagbabasa.”

“dalawang dekada ka lang mag-aaral. kung ‘di mo pagtityagaan, limang
dekada ng kahirapan ang kapalit. sobrang lugi. kung alam lang ‘yan ng mga
kabataan, sa pananaw ko ehh walang gugustuhing umiwas sa eskwela.”

BUHAY (IN GENERAL)

“nalaman kong hindi final exam ang passing rate ng buhay. hindi ito
multiple choice, identification, true or false, enumeration or
fill-in-the- blanks na sinasagutan kundi essay na isinusulat araw-araw.
Huhusgahan ito hindi base sa kung tama o mali ang sagot, kundi base sa
kung may kabuluhan ang mga isinulat o wala. Allowed ang erasures.”

“Kumain ka na ng siopao na may palamang pusa o maglakad sa bubog nang
nakayapak, pero wag na wag kang susubok mag-drugs. Kung hindi mo kayang
umiwas, humingi ka ng tulong sa mga magulang mo dahil alam nila kung saan
ang mga murang supplier at hindi ka nila iisahan.”

“Mangarap ka at abutin mo. Wag mong sisihin ang sira mong pamilya, palpak
mong syota, pilay mong tuta, o mga lumilipad na ipis. Kung may pagkukulang
sa’yo mga magulang mo, pwde kang manisi at maging rebelde. Tumigil ka sa
pag-aaral, mag-asawa ka, mag-drugs ka, magpakulay ka ng buhok sa
kili-kili. Sa banding huli, ikaw din ang biktima. Rebeldeng walang
napatunayan at bait sa sarili.”

“Tuparin ang mga pangarap. Obligasyon mo yan sa sarili mo. Kung gusto mo
mang kumain ng balde-baldeng lupa para malagay ka sa Guinness Book of
World Records at maipagmalaki ng bansa natin, sige lang. Nosi balasi. wag
mong pansinin ang sasabihin ng mga taong susubok humarang sa’yo. Kung
hindi nagsumikap ang mga scientist noon, hindi pa rin tayo dapat nakatira
sa jupiter ngayon. Pero hindi pa rin naman talaga tayo nakatira sa jupiter
dahil nga hindi nagsumikap ang mga scientist noon. Kita mo yung moral
lesson?”

“Nalaman kong habang lumalaki ka, maraming beses kang madadapa. Bumangon
ka man ulit o hindi, magpapatuloy ang buhay, iikot ang mundo, at mauubos
ang oras.”

HALO-HALO

“Wag magmadali sa pag-aasawa. Tatlo, lima, sampung taon sa hinaharap,
mag-iiba pa ang pamantayan mo at maiisip mong di pala tamang pumili ng
kapareha dahil lang sa kaboses niya si Debbie Gibson o magaling
mag-breakdance. Totoong mas importante ang kalooban ng tao higit anuman.
Sa paglipas ng panahon, maging ang mga crush ng bayan sa eskwelahan e
nagmumukha ring pandesal. Maniwala ka.”

“ayokong nasasanay sa mga bagay na pwede namang wala sa buhay ko.”

“hinahanap mo nga ba ako o ang kawalan ko?”

“hindi dahil sa hindi mo naiintindihan ang isang bagay ay kasinungalingan
na ito. at hindi lahat ng kaya mong intindihin ay katotohanan. “

“Sabi nila, sa kahit ano raw problema, isang tao lang ang makakatulong
sa’yo ? ang sarili mo. Tama sila. Isinuplong ako ng sarili ko. Kaya siguro
namigay ng konsyensya ang Diyos, alam niyang hindi sa lahat ng oras e
gumagana ang utak ng tao.”

“Obligasyon kong maglayag, karapatan kong pumunta sa kung saan ko gusto,
responsibilidad ko ang buhay ko.”

“Masama akong tao, tulad mo, sa parehong paraan na mabuti kang tao, tulad
ko.”

“Mas mabuting mabigo sa paggawa ng isang bagay kesa magtagumpay sa paggawa
ng wala.”

“iba ang walang ginagawa sa gumagawa ng wala.”

“iba ang informal gramar sa mali!!!”

“Para san ba ang cellphone na may camera? Kung kailangan sa buhay un,
dapat matagal na kong patay.”

- got this from uij's multiply :)

DLSU vs. ADMU Controversy

2008-09-30T08:49:00.002+08:00

Gloating Blue Eagle -Talking Points

By Bobby Cabral

Dear La Sallians:

By now, you would have experienced gale force winds in Katipunan. Or you would have read articles in newspapers or blogs proclaiming the greatness of this season 71 edition of the Blue Eagles, Rabeh, Chris Tiu, Buenafe et al. They will also criticize our Archers as pikon and lacking class for not receiving their runner-up trophy, so perhaps we should be prepared with the facts.

1. While UP is the host of Season 71 and they selected the Narvasa Brothers (both former Blue Eagle varsity players) and were directly responsible for the referees.

2. Commissioner Chito Narvasa penalized La Salle and Coach Franz Pumaren during the first La Salle-Ateneo regular season game for not wearing his ID and gave two free throws to Ateneo. This inspite of Coach Pido Jarencio of UST being shown not wearing his ID during the earlier game and not being penalized.

3. During two regular games during the season, one versus FEU and the other against UST, referees who called technical fouls against La Salle's opponents were punished by Narvasa after the game with a termination and one with a suspension.

4. During the final championship game, Buenafe, Jobe and other Ateneans could be seen taunting and trash talking but were not penalized.

5. The referees called 29 fouls on the Archers and only 13 fouls against the Blue Eagles. They awarded 28 free throws (18 which were converted) to Ateneo and only 8 free throws to the Green Archers.

6. The phantom finger of Rico was not clearly evident and since there was no reaction from the Eagles, it must not have happened.

7. The Green Archers were in the dugout during the awarding and no official from the UAAP called them out to receive their award.

Finally, if the Ateneans wanted to win with honor, they failed to do so. The Ateneo community should have asked the Narvasas to inhibit themselves due to their school history and obvious bias towards La Salle.

I will concede the first three La Salle-Ateneo games in Season 71 to the Blue Eagles. But we will never know the outcome of game 2 of the Championship series.because the referees panicked when La Salle reduced a 15 point deficit to three in less than five minutes.

Animo La Salle!!!
Got this from nyka :))

IM BACK BITCHES! :))))))))

2008-09-04T19:25:00.002+08:00

Wow it's been awhile, it's been a month to be exact. I was just re-reading old posts a while ago. I forget how much I love writing down my thoughts - or more importantly, how much i like re-reading them and laugh so hard at them at the same time :)))) because it's just weird you know. Reading my old posts is fucking hilarious.

Catch up everyone?

Well, first term's done. And I passed all my freaking subjects =)) which is actually cool, because i thought i would repeat comalge and actbas1. My grades are good actually, except for those two subject i mentioned ( panira ng course card, seriously) Well, at least I passed. I should thank God for that! HAHAH. I was lucky enough to have very brilliant and cooperative seatmates during our Final Examination, you know what i mean :))))))))

HAHAH.

And oh, it's our term break. Time for us to relax and unwind for a while :) but the thing is, it's just for a week, literally. ITS REALLY NOT ENOUGH. Errrr. I hate it.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY INANG! :)

2008-08-07T22:42:00.001+08:00

We're having our field trip tom! :))))
Subic, here we comeeeee. :D

2008-07-29T00:03:00.000+08:00

I hate it when you accuse me of things I never did. :/

2008-07-28T22:48:00.002+08:00

I basically slept the whole day >:)))

I have my monthly period today, it's my second day to be exact. and my lower abdomen hurts like hell. It's my first time to experience this shite, damn.

-2 more days to go

2008-07-21T20:15:00.002+08:00

after 958498 days of not updating this shite. IM BACK :D

Our wifi connection was broken so i didn't had the chance to update this. a lot of things happened na agad. It's too many to mention and type it all here. ANYWAY, we'll be having our LASARE tom. It's actually a recollection. My friends told me that it was super boring, so wish me luck! :DD hahah.

AND OH, I'M IN LOVE WITH THE WORD "RAWR" I don't even know if that's considered a word, whatever. :))))) this is just a waste of time. bye hotts :)

2008-07-17T20:43:00.002+08:00

GO LASALLE! :))))

And yes, we won! we watched kasi at ultra. Ang scary lang nung dating kasi naalala namin ung accident thingy there before the wowowee stampede :( but then, it didn't come across my mind na again. We were so green that time, expect for nyka who was wearing blue. >:) TAKSIL! haha. anyway, it was really a great game. Super dikit lang yung laban. imagine 84 ust then 85 la salle. See what im talking about? WOOHOOO. Ang galing ni Casio, siya ba un? bsta yun. :)) haha. and of course, si baby simon :D HOT MEHN!

animow beybehh :DD

2008-07-15T13:29:00.001+08:00

everythings back to normal.
YAAY.

But still, it's a bad day.
shit kasi comalge :)

2008-07-14T17:24:00.003+08:00

tangina, bakit ganito? i hate this feeling. i hate myself. i hate everyone.

so i guess this is it.

-and we end up, hurting each other, badly.

I LOVE YOU MORE THAN I SHOULD
MORE THAN I SAID I WOULD
MORE THAT I THOUGHT I COULD.

2008-07-10T22:54:00.002+08:00

ACCOUNTING, PAKYU! >:)))

Rawr, ang dami pa lang gagawin. Ngayon ko lang narealize, shet.

cram cram cram. rawr rawr rawr.

:))

- HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABE. ILYSM. :)

2008-07-09T18:44:00.002+08:00

Im running out of words. rawr. :(
OMGFADJFLYAY! im almost done with the book report. Thank God.

I WANT TO SLEEP. THEN STUDY NA.
my eyes are closing naaa.
i have to make bawi with comalge test. rawr.
and yung inthrop test namin. scaryyy :(
i wanna have good scores.

So help me, God.

- 4hours left. :) yay.

2008-07-08T23:05:00.002+08:00

shit. i told you i am a cram queen :)))

i still have one last paper to do: book report. damn! i don't know how to start it. i didn't read the book.

not to mention our accounting test tom! rawr. hateit. and our inthrop long test on thursday together with comalge1. tsktsk. i have to make bawi pa, cause i screwed up last quiz.

then midterms on accounting sa friday. WTF. napakaganda ng sched ngayong week panalo!

okay, magbabago nako after midterms i swear!
mark my words. ayoko na ng nagccramm. :(

- 2 days to go. rawr.

* sorry for the incoherent post*

2008-07-08T00:30:00.001+08:00

and oh, before i forgot.

DLSU VS ATENEO
Winner: ATENEO

Great game! :) It was still worth it.

2008-07-07T22:16:00.003+08:00

Stupid blogger, it didn't save my blog kanina, then it hanged. rawr. okay, i have to repeat things again.

so yeah, It's so not my day.

1. body ache, deadly!
2. forgot my phone
3. forgot my dress for the photoshooot
4. super duper late - decided not to attend filkomu class na lang.

bsta yun. Im not in the mood. so there, Im off to do my inthrop papers na. i just felt the urge of blogging this. pero since napakawalang kwenta... yeah, bye!

- 3 days to go.

2008-07-06T09:47:00.002+08:00

yeahuh. UAAP game's later na. And yes, Im in the mood again to cheer my lungs out for la salle. But still, I'm kind of pissed off to whoever that is, spread bad things about me. okay? enough of this. I don't want to ruin my mood just because of that. Look at the brighter side of things.

MALAPIT NA BIRTHDAY NIYAAA, advance happy birthday :) ILY.

2008-07-06T00:37:00.002+08:00

BAKIT GANOON?

BAKIT ANG DAMING NAKIKIALAM? ANG DAMING NANINIRA? BAKIT KELANGAN GANOON YUNG PINAGKAKALAT DI BA? TANG INA NAMAN. HINDI AKO GAGO OK? PUTANG INA, NAGPAPAKABAIT AKO PARA SA KANYA TAS GANITO PA.

duhh, HINDI NAMAN KASI TOTOO YUNG PINAGSASABI.

k. its already 23o. still awake. not yet done with my inthrop papers. shit. ang dami pa nito. nakakawalang gana tuloy pumunta sa UAAP :((((((((((((( dammit.

torn.

2008-07-04T20:34:00.003+08:00

IM IN BETWEEN.

Literally, I don't know what to choose. I don't what side am i. I can't explain it kasi eh.
Hopefully i can share it with you guys some other time. I will be busy this weekends, because i have to start on my requirements in inthrop pa. And on sunday, i have a game to watch. woohooo. excited na me :D:D first uaap game.

2008-07-03T21:16:00.002+08:00

I WANT ADOBE PHOTOSHOP CS3 IN MY MAC, BADLY. SINONG MERON?

I WANT I WANT I WANT :(((

Sorry, desperate nako.

2008-07-03T20:58:00.002+08:00

I'm taking it all back :) I've changed my mind. HAHAH :)))

UAAP HERE I COME. Yaaay, this will be my first time to go to UAAP game, because seriously I'm not a fan. I just wanted to go there because of the experience. As you can see, the last time i've updated this thing I said i will not go. rawrr. What can I say, things can change in a blink of an eye. :D LOLOL. Anyway, Magaling kasi mag-sale talk sila Cindy eh, feeling ko tuloy napakasaya and i will miss half of my life if i missed it. That's what they said to me exactly. I was trying to convince them with the inthrop kind of excuses, but they were to good, and i just can resist it. Nakakatempt naman kasi talaga eh. But the bad part there is, that DLSU ran out of Upper box b tickets, which means kanya-kanyang diskarte on how to get a ticket. Yeah, luckily we come across this guy, SI KUYA ALVIN TICKET amp. He's a scalper, in case you don't know what that means, they're the ones who have contacts with the tickets, and they'll sell it to you with a higher price. Sadly, my ticket cost 350, original selling is 75. RARARAWR. Iknorite. it's super mahal, pero i have no choice. Ayoko naman ng Gen Ad dude, i feel i'll not enjoy the game if i'll be seating far.

so yeah, let's think it this way. WORTH IT YUNG 350 NA YUN. :))

UAAP.

2008-07-02T21:15:00.005+08:00

BEAT ATENEO. ANIMO LA SALLE!

I want to watch the opening of UAAP :( AMP. But I still don't have a ticket. HAAAY. Plus, I have a lot of requirements due next week so i really doubt if i can watch the game. In INTROP we have to do 1 reaction paper about a documentary movie, 2 movie reviews, 1 book report not to mention our test, next week din.

THANK YOU INTROP, REALLY. DI AKO MAKAKANOOD NG GAME DAHIL SAYO.

Another thing, We will be having a make up class on friday. Rawrrr. Nakakarma na ata ako, kasi i once used this excuse to go out with friends, sbi ko make up class for accounting. Akalain mong nagkatotoo. :) HAHAH. Dammit. And we still have this frosh convocation, take note: REQUIRED and we have to wear a corporate attire. Good thing I have thing attire, I used it during our teacher's day in HS. YAAY.

enough of this, I'll be doing my homeworks na. GOODNIGHT WORLD.

hell week's coming..

2008-06-30T21:40:00.002+08:00

HAHAH :)) parang highschool lang. Still not starting with all my requirements for actbas1 and inthrop, which are due on wed and next tuesday respectively. Cram Queen ako remember? :)) hahah. damn. I must change naaa, Bawal na daw magprocrastinate sa college :( rawrrr. HIRAP damn, I want to start na, pero I can't. I don't know where and how to start dammit!

MIDTERMS NEXT WEEK. goodluck sa akin. :((

BTW, Tickets are available tom (July 1) for UAAP La Salle Vs. Ateneo game. Yeahuh, first game ng la salle, versus. ateneo agad! San ka pa! hahah :)) Sana di ako maubusan ng ticket! =))

ANIMOW LASALLE :)

Wish me luck! :D

its raining

2008-06-28T20:37:00.004+08:00

It's raining this evening. Hateit.

I feel so sad whenever it rains. I don't know why, but I feel alone.

Malungkot lang talaga, yun lang. :/

yaayaaay

2008-06-26T23:01:00.003+08:00

I'm updating using my mac, at last. We have wifi na at our house:))) yaay. I don't need to wait my brother when i need to use the computer. Sorry natuwa lang ako. I guesss, It'll be easier to update my blog na!

college :]

2008-06-21T22:04:00.002+08:00

THINGS I LEARNED IN MY FIRST MONTH OF COLLEGE

Aside from the given that college is a new thing for me, I mean new friends, new professors, new environment, new world… IT’S ALL NEW BABY. But thank God I’m getting used to it!

Coins are treasures. To some, coins are burdens to their purses, always heavy and noisy, even for me when I was in High School. But definitely not now -- coins is like a must for me because of the commuting part (jeep-jeep-mrt-lrt) How cool is that? But thanks to the Stored Value Card, makes the mrt-lrt thing easier. I don’t have to fall in that super long line anymore! I won't last a day without bringing out my beloved orange stripes coin purse. Donations anyone? ☺

Never leave home without your umbrella ella ella eh eh eh. This month, we experienced major rains and intense heat, and in both of those occasions, we were able to survive thanks to the trusty folding umbrella. In times of crisis, it's your ultimate weapon. Right now, I don't know how I ever managed to leave the house without an umbrella before especially because of the strom we have right now!

Recite, recite, recite. Though it feels awkward at first to recite without having to stand up, I learned that the best way to get yourself known to the teacher is simply to raise your hand and answer your question. Unlike high school, your teachers don't know who you are, and you don't get to wear a nametag, so you really have to make an effort to get yourself known to the teacher -- in a positive way of course.

Being an early bird is a good thing, when your class is in Andrew. And yes, that’s because of the elevator traffic! You should be there at least 30 minutes before your class so you won’t be late. Or else, you have to walk through the epic stairs. Imagine, from first to eighth floor?! WTF right? ☺ eh 4 floors hingal na ako eh, what more kung 8. doble pa yun. Shit! I have experienced that, a lot! And I tell you,don’t even try. Baka mamatay ka lang :D

Walking is inevitable. So everywhere you go in DLSU, people are walking, walking, walking, and yes, walking. Unlike highschool, classes in college are in different rooms and even in different buildings, so walking is vital. You have to run at some some point if running late. ;)

It's great to have new friends. So far, in my block, I'm closest with Cindy, yes special mention! :)) and also to the girls ( Ina, Nyka, Iris, Ekis Nadz, Pat and Janine) who by the way, has this huge secret. HAHA. Soryyyyyy, I won’t spill it here.

Not all teachers are terrifying. My Anthropology and Biotech teachers are pretty cool. In fact, I think I'll be enjoying their subjects because they're so down-to-earth and very understanding and kalog, super. My accounting prof, is yeah, gay? I think. Haha. While my algebra prof is boring and a bit plastic :/ I just don’t like here. PERIOD. But I guess I just really have to find their "kiliti" so that I won't piss them off. It will probably take me lots of determination and perseverance to get the hindrances out of the way.

ANIMO LASALLE BABY ☺

I hope your first month all went well.

BTW, I already had a record at the clinic. Because, I fainted during my Computer class, Low Blood Pressure dammit. =)) sorry na, frosh eh!

2008-05-23T13:09:00.005+08:00

ej is going somewhere else today! thank God! :]]]

riiiiiiiiiight.

2008-05-22T13:56:00.001+08:00

school starts in exactly four days, and i'm here stuck at our house and im bored, very very bored. :(

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2008-04-22T15:56:00.003+08:00

at last, i finally laid my fingers in this computer, for like three days, i haven't open this. so here's waht i did for the last few days.

feb 18: the infamous RITA HOT SUMMER PARTY @ ionne's crib. AMPPP. let just say that I was wasted that time, too fucking wasted. I had so much fun, but then things went out of control. For the first time, I got super duper drunk. I dont want to elaborate it. Bsta it won't happen again. i promise.

feb 19: our dayy. I JUST RESTED&RELAXED FOR THE WHOLE DAY. it was whore.

feb 20: went out my familyyy :)

feb 21: glorieta with nikkatocks then to her house :DD

feb 22: dentist appointment ;)

my happiness.

2008-04-17T15:40:00.002+08:00

One thing's fo sure about people is that, everyone in this world wants to be happy.Who doesn't anyway? DUHHH. Of course, everyone does right? We usually do every possible way to find that happiness that will make our lives better and more colorful. We try new things, make new things or look for new things. Not knowing that happy can be just beside us, we haven't just see things clearly for us to see the essentials.

However, sometimes we do unnecessary things that we think are the best to feel happy although the truth is, they will just drown us into the depths of disappointment and sorrow. Also, there are times in our lives when we, ourselves, are the one who do not realize that we could actually feel happy every time... if we just allow ourselves to.

Being happy isn't really that hard. In fact, there are lots of things that could make us feel the joy. Some of these are just simple things like being with the people we love, seeing the innocent faces and smiles of babies, listening to uplifting music, and being with our wonderful friends,talking and chitchatting as if it would be the end of the world.

We don't need to be one of the most successful men or women in history just to be happy. We don't need certain achievements in life, or positions in every organizations for us to be happy. We don;t need every filthy gadgets, and clothes and whatever that material this that life has to offer to be happy. We just need to be optimistic and appreciate the littlest things.

See the best in everything. Make the best in everything. If we do these, we will surely adore life. Happiness is a choice. It's only we who could help ourselves be happy whatever life brings.

I AM HAPPY WITH MY LIFE, WITH EVERY PERSON INVOLVED IN IT
AND WITH THE THINGS AROUND ME.
I AM HAPPY SIMPLY BECAUSE YOURE THERE.
I AM SORRY, for being a dumbass ignoring you and your feeling.

twilight movie.

2008-04-14T11:33:00.002+08:00

Robert Pattinson and Kristen Stewart
as Edward and Bella

I'm starting to like Pattinson and Kristen Stewart for the role. They just have chemistry. and plus, Pattinson looks undeniably hot here in this picture right? :)

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2008-04-12T23:52:00.002+08:00

IM BOOOOOOOREEEEEEED. CAN SOMEONE SAVE ME FROM THIS FUCKING HELLHOLEEEEEE. :(

and yeah, I feel so blah. and I don't know why. I haven't blog for like ages and i'm missing this. okay, forgive me for being random, there's so much things going on in my head and I want to write it all off here right now, but i dont know how to start. maybe i'll just rant things down some other time, because some dumbass is watching me type this thing down, and im irritated. so ill just post them prolly within this week or next week or next next week =))

home alone.

2008-03-29T21:12:00.002+08:00

damn. i was grounded. i was supposed to be partying and enjoying and chillaxing and whatevs at Paulina's crib today but because something came up, the plan was ruined. I've been online for exactly 4 hours and 14 minutes, that was long. I got nothing to do anyway so i'll just waste it in surfing the net. enough of that.

anywaysss, Just checking out my new layout. i loved the bright colors in it. rawrr. i'm just into colorful things nowadays.

it's graduation day.

2008-03-28T18:43:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, it was the moment of truth, the last time I get to wear my uniform ever, the last time I sang the CSR shitty Hymn(nobody wants that anyway), the last time to enter CSR as their student, the last gathering I had with all of my batchmates, my eximius and the last time that I get to call Colegio de Santa Rosa, my home.

We all made it. We're now officially graduate for God sake, all our hardworks are now paid off.

I never thought it could be this so overwhelming. I'm sitting in front of my computer knowing that the High School life was now over. Yesterday, I wanted to do so many things to savor the remaining moments -- take pictures, talk to people, stand in the middle of the campus and just take everything in. For eleven years I've been in this school and it was only recently that I realized how this school really is my home. My life revolved in this school and the awesome people in it, and I know nothing about the 'real world' out there. Maybe I come armed with sufficient knowledge but experience? I don't think so. So yes, I'm dying to see the world out there. CSR has been my cocoon, taking me in as a young caterpillar, and now I'm ready to soar like the butterfly that I am. I can't wait.

But I am honestly scared as well. Like what I said, I know nothing about what's outside the walls of our school. Sure, I can commute to and from our house, CSR, glo or other nearby places, but can I really handle it all on my own? I've always felt sure of myself when I go out thinking that I'm all grown-up but in reality, I'm really still an inexperienced newbie. And yes, I can probably consider myself friendly because I have many friends from different year levels. But what if that's just because of my visibility in school? Now that I think about it, I am nothing compared to the millions of people out there, journeying the streets of Manila. Why haven't I felt this way before in my entire life?

It's probably because I've always felt safe in CSR, I can let my guard down here. All my friends are here, and I know most of the people in this place by their names, or by their faces. It's my comfort zone and as cliche as it sounds, it's my home away from home. I probably spend more time here than at home considering our usual regular classes and late dismissals. I know of no other school than CSR, and I can't imagine calling myself an "alumna."

Perhaps it's not the Graduation itself I fear, but the aftermath. What will happen and what will be left of us? -- those are the big questions. And I guess we'll never really know until it comes. One side of me wants to rewind and freeze time. But there's pretty much nothing I can do about it. The time has come, and it's up to me how I'll handle life after it.

I certainly hope that yesterday won't be the last time I get to call myself a Rosena.

2008-03-11T21:29:00.000+08:00

I SIMPLY HATE THIS DAY.

hell week

2008-03-05T00:05:00.002+08:00

DAY 2 of last hell week in CSR.

i haven't studied yet. damn.
rawrr, can't wait for this to be over.
I swear to holy heavens that as soon as this shit
end, i will just chill and enjoy the remaining days of
my highschool life.
I wouldn't thought that this will be fast.
In no less than a month, we will all part ways.

ok. enough of this drama. I will save my speech first, wait for my special grad blog. :D

FUCK SHITEEEE.

2008-03-03T08:31:00.003+08:00

rawrrr. i need to rant down my thoughts.
this thesis project is killing me, actually we haven't

started it yet. because of my motherfucker groupmate.

kasi naman you should have said to me earlier that you couldnt make it dba?
at least, alam ko. at sana nakagawa pa ako ng paraan.
hindi ung ganito, iiwanan mo kami sa ere.
FUCK shit tlgaaaaaaaaaaa.

dammmitt. wala pa akong nagagawa. at least, i have ira with me.
together, sana magawaa namin un. but i doubt that we will be able to accomplish this shit.
we have to book bind the thesis pa, to think that the deadline of this shit is on wed na.
damn. how good is that eh?

I can feel the presure
its getting closer now

JUDGEMENT WEEK.

2008-02-23T14:59:00.002+08:00

Maybe it's no use to say "long time no blog" this time. I really can't think of anything significant to blog about, except for some rants, but I know by experience that a blog just isn't about rant posts. My blog is a reflection of my life and my life is not merely spent on rants.

Anyways, 5 more days seniors, 5 more days before the last regular school day of highschool; it's judgment week( I just invented it BTW.)

I've probably worked my hardest during this last year of highschool - NOT! i was in fact lazy during my fourth year compared to my last year. HAHAHA. and oh, one comment on whoever told me that third year was a lot harder than fourth year - WTF?! Fourth year is a thousand times harder than third year. It's only during this year that I experienced sleeping at two o'clock in the morning - and during one time I didn't sleep at all - because of academics. Usually I would have just let those projects slide by, or those assignments forgotten. Not to mention the pressure of being a senior, it really sucks ya know.

And because this is the last week of my last year, I'm going to try and accomplish this short-term goals: thesis, computer project, class entrep, and othersss :)

when will i ever learn?

2008-02-12T23:10:00.000+08:00

I SHALL NOT PROCRASTINATE.

Never again will I cram.
Gahd. I hate it, Why am I alway like this?
I've got a lot of this to do. As in a lot.

:DDD

2008-02-12T00:50:00.000+08:00

I AM LUCKY!

thank you lord :)

Thank you dear :]

2008-02-10T11:06:00.000+08:00

So tonight I'll sit and pick apart your pictures,
and over analyze your words,
the truth is that i've never fallen so hard.

still can't sleep.

2008-02-07T01:01:00.000+08:00

for Heaven's sake. It's already one in the morning and my ass is all glued up to the chair. :]] haha. i don't even feel sleepy at all. oh btw, the application letters were up. I've received mine a while ago. I know I'm good with it, i mean. at least i've got a sure school anyway, but still it hurts. I find myself regretting the actions i've done. I wish I was actually serious in getting in this university. Sana hindi ko ginago yung review. Sayang kasi eh. Money and time were wasted. It's all my fault anyway. I wish i could take back the time. Gosh, all my blogs are always about college. Maybe because i was very much disappointed. Bitter eh? :) well, maybe.

-- flashflashrevolution is the secks. keeps me from sanity :)

ehmaighad.

2008-02-03T00:18:00.000+08:00

C.R.A.M. that's what im doing right now. :)
yeah whatevs. I fxcking spend my 48 hour rest day
by just surfing things randomly at net a
nd watching coffee prince. That's pretty much it.
I didnt do any of my school stuff,
and damn im actually procrastinating now.
i need to work on five reaction papers,
and our physics reporting.

Oh Lord, help me.

If you thought I'd leave then you were wrong,

2008-02-01T22:05:00.000+08:00

CAUSE I WON'T STOP HOLDING ON.

I felt the urge to blog. My mind is too confuse, so pardon me for my incoherence.

JAN 25
MCR CONCERT. We, Kuya and I were lucky enough to have free tickets, given my our Tito Ramsy. It was Silver A. Not bad after all. The venue wasn't filled. Ang daming vacant seats. Sayang. And the croud wasn't that great. Oh well, Enough of the negative side. MCR was amazing. :) seriously, I don't know where the energy came from. Bsta ang galing. XD

JAN 26
Debut ni Justine. Errr, It was effin boring. :D good thing my girlfriends are there, and also father chris. :) CUTE.

JAN 27
Family Day.Watched Alvin and the Chipmunks with my brothers.

JAN 28
No Classes/Rest Day.

JAN 29-30
Teacher's Day. I was one of the Sutdent-teacher. At first I was kinda worried, because I was the Substitute for Mrs. Pidlaoan. She's like the CLE teacher. DAMN. I have to be good for Christ's sake. I am not allowed to say those bad words, to do things that is not appropriate or whatever. It was hard. And I had a hard time to find formal clothes, because I don't have any. I needed to buy pa. :) To some it all, It was a great experience. It is really hard to be a teacher, Dang. You have to be patient with all the students, the schedules, the paperworks, the classrecords. EVERYTHING! :) hahah.

JAN 31-FEB 1
Teacher's Retreat. So technically, we have no classes again. DANG. I was house arrest, because i was fxcking grounded. BAD TIMING, but good thing my friends visited me. :) They went at my place for no particular reason. Wala lang. Gusto lang nila :)) hahah. It kinda made my day. :)) Thanksss.

`I love you too much.

such a proud sister.

2008-01-23T19:56:00.000+08:00

OMGYAYYYYY. I'm so proud of my brother. He was so amazing! :)
imagine, he ain't studyin or whatever at home but his grades improved.
He improved really well. His lowest score was 93 and that subject was MAPE.
Fuck that, I think that was my highest score. :)) hahah.
That was kinda lame right? :)) boooyeah.

Okay, I just login to brag my brother :D
DAMN. He's brain was like 165465765416 times larger than mine. =]]]

it wasn't good enough.

2008-01-20T18:52:00.000+08:00

and so we lost. we lost that most anticipated event of our school, the cheerdance compet. I was completely heart broken, knowing that this was our last year in our gadamn school we weren't lucky enough to get the gold ~~and not to mention the bragging rights.~~ I knew that I could do better. I mean i didn't did well. We sucked. we were tooo nervous that time. Very nervous. I just knew it. It wasn't just our best performance. I was like 'why in the world did we lost'. we we're all shocked. all of us cried, so fvcking hard. After announcing the winners, we all went to the chapel to thank God despite what happened. It was disturbing cause I remember our retreat, we were crying so hard like it was our retreat. nice was right, everything happens for a reason and maybe the gold was not meant for us. This compet made us realize and deepen the bond within the batch and of course to HIM. haha. yeah-uh. father nice actually said that and im stunned cause she was pretty religious.

but I'm gadamn over it.
congrats to the new champions, the juniors. It was a close fight.

we only got 2 months left in fvcking school, and we should cherish every moment we spend.

despite what happen, my love for my batch will never ever change.
I STILL LOVE MY SEXIMIUS :]

Reason why I get nervous.

2008-01-15T23:04:00.000+08:00

Because I barely got 50 days left to enjoy my fvcking highschool lift.
Because I ain't got no school yet, seriously.
because We only have three days left before cheering competition itself.
because of our bullshit report in physics
because i haven't got my attendance sheet yet.

damn. I have to sleep well, and have a good rest. PATAYAN NA BUKAS. Whole day practice, whole day terror, whole day tarayan at kung ano-ano pa :)) hahahahah.

You have to lose a few battles; in order to win the war.

2008-01-15T22:48:00.000+08:00

You lucky bastard, getting to read something that I've written!

Not even five minutes ago, I was browsing the net, I just can't remember that site- that I found on Google. Being a teenager myself, I checked the list of teenage blogs. I wanted a blog of my own and previewing the writings of more experienced teenage bloggers seemed like a good idea.

As I read, one thing became apparent. Personal blogs are just that - personal. Nothing wrong with that. But some writers went beyond personal into the dark area of self-centeredness. You know, the subconcious "universe revolves around me" attitude. And oh, the complaining!! I skimmed so many "my life is so bad, i hate school, I can't wait to get out on my own" I began to get a little depressed.

Obviously, I told myself as I created this new blog, personal journals are bound to be self-centered. Fact of life. No one writes a personal journal without focusing on themselves. So, with my own blog, I'm admitting that it is going to be self-centered. I can't really write a non-self-centered personal blog, you know? I doubt you can either. Just try.

But one thing I am going to try to do is not fill every line with some complaint. Now I'm sure I'll slip somewhere, but I really will try. Just like the older entries I've done.

-- oh great :] you've just wasted a minute of your life by reading this nonsense shite.

And all I need is a little luck.

2008-01-13T12:30:00.000+08:00

Mirror, mirror on the wall who cracks the most jawbreaking joke of them all?...

Sometimes life can be so frustrating and annoying. Sometimes fate can twist itself and surround you with stuffs that can make you puke rather than with stuffs that can give you that lasting smile. Sometimes, no matter how hard you try to just STAY AWAY from these CRAPS, fate will always take that 360-degree turn to make your life miserable :(

it's already january 13, and right now I ain't got no school yet for college. I've realized a lot. These past few days i was really thinking what went wrong. I did my best, but still it wasn't enough. First, DLSU then ADMU and now UP. :( am i that lame? DAMN. These thoughts are fvcking killing me already. Like why did I choose that fvking course, why not the not-so-usual-course so it'll be easier to have at least the school you want, why didn't i prepare myself for these shit test, why did they passed, why not me, why only them. Fvck that. I hate it, I can't help myself but to rant to these things. So many questions run throuh my mind, these things are driving me insane. FOR REAL. Whenever I'm in school, I kind of get rid of these thoughts because of the books I'm reading, the cheerdance practice itself. But when it's time for me to lay down at my bed, these thoughts are getting heavier and heavier. Until I can't sleep. and that I needed to cry to make myself sleepy. :( GOSH.

MY LIFE WAS SO FUCKED UP.